It's so cold outside! There is ice in the sidewalk cracks, but no snow settled yet. I went half dressed outside and I was freezing, but I wanted to get on a near street to take pictures. There is a wide Antiquities store that I never found my way into that you can only see by the window. This morning the door was open and on pointed toes I had a look through a metal gate where you could see the beautiful, abandonned ship-like store with all its lights open, with no one in sight. Standing there feeling the warm air that had a wood scent, That silence has made me feel something even music can't do. I was standing there on pointed toes for a few minutes. Now, I want to do milion things today and I can't pick one. Not being able to go outside so much again makes me a bit sad. On my way back it got way colder and I stayed in all day.

The Parisian dream lifestyle

My word was just shaken up today. I got refused at the school I wanted to be at. This time im going to take a deep breath and do one thing at a time, enjoying each step and making sure each thing that I do gives a reasonable slap in the face to anyone who would have doubt me on any detail. This path is mine to experiment with and I will believe in my friends who are so supportive and the memories of my teachers who said they found poetry in my way of being. Im sure I will exactly where I want to be shortly. I understand how precious is being 20 in a century like this one, even though I have forever felt out of time. I would like to adress this photo to the ones who do doubt me.